❥Les reves sont en nous

2009-12-10T03:12:00.002+08:00

4a.m, fully awake, staring, splitting headache that has been with me for days.

"love comforteth like sunshine after the rain" william shakespear may say. but dang, he's so wrong.
i was there once upon a time, believing, trusting, falling. believe me, i was there.

sad to say, there is no such thing as true love, only lust. and you can only lust after love, or love after lust.

i cant wait to get myself inked next tuesday! :D am exciteeeeeeeddddddddd.
grats dear zhenna who got married last sunday. :)
these few days have been bad.

things change. people change. you've changed.

sigh, i miss a particular someone.
now tell me, why am i staying awake waiting for a ring?

2009-12-10T03:10:00.000+08:00

people whom i'm supposed to link, i have finally after years, linked you up.

AND I AM FINALLY OUT OF THAT FUCKING PLACE WHICH I SO DAM HATE, I'VE NEVER BEEN HAPPIER.

2009-12-04T17:07:00.001+08:00

finally. submitted. resigned.

i give up. this is really not the thing for me, for an individual with creative juices to use. i don't see where this is leading me.

looking forward to new prospects.

2009-10-28T12:12:00.001+08:00

Regrets. and more regrets for accepting a job so readily.

2009-07-21T04:14:00.006+08:00

i have long discovered the wonders of falsies.
how can anyone ever live without them?!
total time taken: 10 minutes.

aren't they difficult to apply?
and the answer i'd give you would be a no. practice makes perfect i would say.
girls in singapore who do not apply makeup, here's the time to start.
make up makes the world go round. :)

you draw your eyes and apply mascara. in the meantime, do something else while the mascara dries up.

next you curl your top lashes, mine, as you can see is on the short side. :(
bottom lashes are real though!

perhaps, it would be better sideways.

next you apply glue onto your falsies.

paste it on and leave your eye half open waiting for it to dry.

and you open your eyes, and there. a nicer looking and more awake pair of eyes. :)

❥baby, smooches.

2009-07-21T04:01:00.005+08:00

oh yes, when we're out, sticks and poles become our best friend.
wondering why?
here's why. :)

2nd may 2009. venue, yishun park. i don't have to mention much, but there's this invisible force poking him, from somewhere.
footnote: it's the weather, the heat is killing your brain cells as well as lowering your sperm count. so guys, wear boxers and stop squishing your poor balls.

when you're bored while smoking in the carpark before a movie, you find a pole and derive pleasure out of it.

you change positions.

and move it all around..

and you thrust.

and viola! you broke the poor pole. :(

pictures are courtesy to mr loh. :D

2009-07-21T03:36:00.007+08:00

busy busy busy.

14th july 2009.
mr june with reinforced with an attendance list, we all made our way to marina square for a so-called "farewell" dinner for dearest darling, which of cos, lead to a ktv session,
where some people got really high strung.
5 10 was fun. LOLS.

sidenote: it's not like we're not going to see him ever again, but this is a valid excuse for another guild outing!

with my ever trusty phone, i snapped.
this time round, be glad people, be glad i was out of my brains to video the wrong way. :(
pictures here we go!

introducing: WARAKU!

to the left: the drunk-but-doesnt-want-to-admit-drunk calvin79. (when you decide you can win me in 5 10 or out drink me, then i'll remove these words. ha. ^^)
to the right: supposedly to be drunk person of the day.

that's mr sammydog, and mr yuan aka oimmortalo hiding in the background.

yes, this is mr lifejune. dont be alarmed, but he had an attendance list! O.O

our huge partyworld room.

here's mr red running away from the camera. (am more comfortable calling him ang eh)

guys. when a photo is snapped of you. be candid, and generous. snap a proper photo like ang eh please. :( you people like to make me snap your hands.

i so love this shot. candid!

welcome to the family of the same height. LOL.

mr poser, mr pretend-i-didnt-know-she-was-taking-a-photo and mr-act-singer. :X

take one!

take two! :( he cant. POSE for the camera. god.

take three. and im satisfied. mesmerizing. :)

2009-07-14T06:03:00.002+08:00

a short note:

to my mr leonard koh:

hearts for you. :)

your time is coming soon. i dont have to say much.
you should know me well enough.

just give me some time. yes, i need the time.

here's how i reciprocate you. your post is specially in red.
now. dont tease me already. im shy. :(

2009-07-14T04:58:00.006+08:00

to a certain someone if you happen to chance upon this:

thank you for calling me a dumb fuck.
now, if i was a dumb fuck, where would that leave you?
number one, it was just a simple yes or no question.
thus, you could have just gave me the correct answer or you could have
replied me in a speech punctuated by rhetorical pauses.

but no, you decide to give me "that's very obvious, must you ask such a dumb fk question? *forgive me, i am trying hard to recall the exact way it was phrased to me in broken english*"

acrimony was a vindication for your confusion.
perhaps you would like to elucidate your recent strange behaviour.
or maybe if i spoke in your language it would help ameliorate the pain of being confused?

i made a mental note to self that i should post this up for the love of the world,
and here i am doing it.

i'm guessing that you would rebuke me by saying that, a chinese should speak chinese.
i admit that my chinese may be somewhat abhorrent or even revolting. yes, i may seem obnoxious but i have to offer my apologies, english as an international language, should be the one spoken adequately.

intellectually wise, educational wise as well as linguistic abilities, i have to say that i prove myself to be much better then you.
so what gives you the right to call me a dumb fuck?
oh let me find another word for dumb fuck.
how about, " you incoherent, feeble minded, imbecile simpleton " ?
doesn't it look much better in words?

perhaps i should put that title on you, you seem to fit the shoe better then i do.

personally, you have contravened my own law for calling me an "incoherent, feeble minded, imbecile simpleton".
so before you ever call me a dumb fuck. let me tell you, i. aint no bimbo. thank you.

if you ever need help in certain words that i have used, dictionary.com would be a good place to start.

click here

but of cos, i'd willingly lend a helping hand.

2 words for a simpleton? go ponder. :)

2009-07-13T05:15:00.003+08:00

everyone is someone else's scenery.
the heart's been touched but belongs to another.
apologies that your heart has to be put aside.

please drive a bullet through my heart.

the door's been closed on you since the day you left.
time is what i need.
respect is what you should give.

i'm sorry.

錯過;
我們都有過錯;
在幸福的角落;
還要再奢求什麼;
直到一天;
遺憾開出它的花朵;
誰都會明白;
從前才是最快樂.

2009-07-13T04:53:00.006+08:00

and also, here's what you tend to do when you're bored at work.

ok. this aint at work, but here's one big happy gripz family. :)

you snap pictures of your colleagues ugliest poses unknowingly..

you grab the person nearest to you for a snapshot..

both of you decide that at 9pm with nothing to do, you pose like idiots openly..

and try to take photo with the name of the shop in the background and fail..

you decide that you want to kiss her..

and she decides she wants to kiss you..

you snap a photo of her with her so called round nose.. *rolls eyes*

you take a snapshot of the amount of liquid consumed in half a day..

and the work due for the next day.. T_T

last but not least, you snap the emptiness of the mall at 9pm.

2009-07-13T04:23:00.004+08:00

haven't been updating in awhile. here's what's been going on.

one word: dragonica!

been playing too long, thus, giving up the time to update.
well, it's been awhile since being last addicted to a game.
the game may seem cartoonish, it's very much maple like.
a side scrolling game, only plus point that it's in 3d.
let's see, stats do not need to be added, only plus point, just add the stats of your skills.

screenies of the game!

ps: all are invited to come play. just add me at Estrrella. :)

funniest emo ever in dragonica!

2009-07-07T04:52:00.001+08:00

reminisce; the times that i spent with you.
neglect; the way you're treating me everyday.
dreams; are filled with you.
heart; where the secrets are kept safely.
love; is such a strange thing.
you; would never be mine.

and perhaps, one day, just one fine day...

if i could tell you straight in the face that i do like you;
i would.

but i cant.

please. dont make me emo anymore.

2009-07-06T07:45:00.003+08:00

VIDEOS ARE PROCESSED!

hehe darling. i told you i'd post it. muwahhahah.
and by the way, the youtube videos, the whole world can see okay. :)
i didn't put it under private. :D
so you can search for them in youtube! muwahhahahha.
and soon, it'll be the ones at transformers outing!

these will be your best memories before you enter ns, and i'll miss you.

2009-07-06T07:25:00.004+08:00

i shall dedicate this, to dead me.
still miss the game, but, nothing's holding me back anymore except 2 goddamned levels.

穿越千年的傷痛;

只為求一個結果;

你留下的輪廓指引我;

黑夜中不寂寞;

穿越千年的哀愁;

是你在盡頭等我;

最美麗的感動;

會值得用一生;

守候.

2009-07-06T06:48:00.009+08:00

i take photo of auntie~~ auntie take photo of me. cute.

yeap, the ghost of mr slayer will be here to haunt you baby.

punishment for not singing? face the wall.

oo. darling with the idiotic. face. i have more if anyone wants to see.

and yes, the singers of the night, put your hands up for mr lifejune and mr slayerimmortal!

okay never mind, let me get my youtube account first. bloody verification is taking so long to send. here's some boring pictures to keep the world happy.
crap, the video is not yet processed. im sad.

drinking keeps the world crazy and happy.

2009-07-06T06:26:00.002+08:00

it's been a whole night of.. dragonica! and yes, if you love maple, i highly recommend this game to you. :)

at this point of time, i'm still trying to figure out why i cant view the videos in my phone on my computer.
right back on thursday, or friday, i can't remember, 5 of us went out for a last minute ktv sessions. namely, me, slayer, lifejune, auntie and darling.
had quite abit to drink, which led me and darling to spend half the next day at auntie's place.

there are actually videos of fun times, one of the most fun ktv sessions ever. (due to drinks -_-)
but i cant figure out why i can't view the videos! and besides, photobucket is taking a bloody long time to upload. 42% currently :(

that ktv session was one i never regretted going, not because of drinks but because it was something more close to my heart.

21 more days to go.

Momentum was one guild i never regretted joining, and im glad i met most of you.
soon, when i have the time, i'll open a forum for all momentum members to post and chat into.
although im no longer in momentum.

but it has brought me through alot of things, met alot of people, who touched my heart in a way or so, or rather, it has led me to open up my heart since chinese new year's eve.
love you guys.

VIDEO IS FINALLY UP!
shall make a whole new post for this.
been a while since i last blogged, kinda, nub to all this.
well on the lighter note, i still do remember my html and javascripting codes. <3

2009-07-05T07:28:00.002+08:00

7:30 and im here staring at the gloomy skies, wondering whats making my head throb.

everything's happening all happening at the wrong time, blame me on being in the wrong place at the wrong time.
a secret i kept, a secret i kept for a really long time.
and yes, perhaps i have fallen. just perhaps.

i never want to see you unhappy;

i thought you'd want the same for me;

Goodbye, my almost lover;

Goodbye, my hopeless dream;

i'm trying not to think about you;

cant you just let me be;

so long, my luckless romance;

my back is turned to you;

i should've known you'd bring me heartache;

almost lovers always do.

goodbye, familiar stranger.

2009-07-05T04:06:00.000+08:00

one year later, it's finally alive! after spending the whole night on the bloody codes.

im tired. :(

2007-06-25T02:39:00.000+08:00

i was browsing through the papers the other day and this particular review caught my eye.
about a family down in Pakistan.
3 brothers. 2 in the political side (and on opposition sides of each other) and a suicide bomber.
it's just so amazing.

what is wrong with these people. why can't people just live in peace?
terriorism yada yada. ain't everyone living in the same world?
can't we just close one eye and ignore the differences in culture?

another piece of news that totally left me bewildered.
was the kids in the orphanage. kids with low iQ chained to their cribs.
left on the floor. naked. and starving.
and oh well. their government actually blames people for sticking their noses in.
and said those kids were just fine. (if you have no idea what im talking about. go read TNP please.)
and if you saw those pictures. NO. they weren't fine.
stop trying to cover up and make it sound like your puny little government is taking care of this.
how can a fellow citizen treat each other this way?

humanity has lost its purest form.
total insanity.

oh heck. i'm waiting for 3am to reach. the Grizzly Man is showing on Discovery Channel.
i shall post a review on it after i actually finish the show.

and OH. someone called me a bitch in forum for my posts in some noob's thread.
he said something like "grow up, you little bitch. i wonder if you have any friends with this fucking attitude"

and guess what.
i am a bitch. i never said i wasn't. and to people whom i need to be bitchy to. i definately will be.
my attitude. i don't give a damn if you don't know me well enough.
only people who know me well. know they way i am.

i am who i am. take it. or leave it.
or basically if you can't stand me.
go away or face my warth.

2007-06-23T01:10:00.000+08:00

i think i love you. ♥

now i miss you.

2007-06-10T03:50:00.000+08:00

oh man. i've been so busy.
basically i hate GSS 'cos.
1) i personally cant get anything i like.
2) service sucks.
3) the store is in a mess making me feel horrid.
4) too MANY people.
5) i hate to be deemed as a cheapskate.
6) i dont buy sale items. -.-"

so does it explain why i hate GSS now?
im not some missy. but oh well. i just dont like sales.

saw this tee at Skin. LOVEEE it.
over budget. T.T

jx. adam's so gonna kill me. but oh well.
here's his face.
click here!

to someone: im sorry we ended this way.
maybe the novelty has worn off. in fact. it was wrong from the beginning.
i swear i tried to put my heart into it. but. somehow. it just doesnt seem right.
maybe someone else stole my heart.
perhaps. you cant give me what i want.
or you're just not the right material.
either way. thanks for being there.
i had a great time. =)
then again. im sorry i hurt you.

*EDITED: there you go harnie. it has been removed at ur request.
jx. if you haven seen it. get in on friendster. or msn.
LOL

2007-06-05T01:52:00.000+08:00

i snipped my hair. short. LOL.
i absolutely loooovvvveeee it.
next is to add some highlights.
no idea what colour to add.

i'm finished with Bleach. T_T
oh man. no more daily fix of Bleach!
damn.

i only like slept 1 hour today. stupid sgh.
fucking waste of time.
i actually have an entry to type in. but am too lazy now.
been so busy recently.

I HATE GSS.
I HATE CHEAPSKATES. =)

2007-05-31T03:42:00.000+08:00

nothing much to blog recently. just to say. i'm really tired.

maybe i have insomia. omg. O.O

我只想对着夜空轻轻的呼吸.

问自己最爱的人到底在哪里.

有一种爱它曾经住在我心里.

陪伴我熬过多少个无声哭泣. Y

footnote to adam: i lazy explain. go slowly read. =)

2007-05-28T23:53:00.000+08:00

it's been awhile.
since i felt. this way.

原来这才是真的你, 忘了什么叫做珍惜.
你想找谁合演对手戏, 这是你的权利.
虽然泪水淹没了眼睛. 原来这才是真的你. Y

2007-05-24T23:04:00.000+08:00

LOL. i just have to post this.
come come. come see my shoe collection.
and it's only part of it.
cos i only have these few at home.
i gave away 5 pairs. NOT FAIR!!!

kindly. click on the links to view some of my shoes. =)

_ part of them _

_ my heels _

_ my flats _

oh. im thinkin of changing my maple story char. again.
which is better?

or

2007-05-24T14:40:00.000+08:00

... tan ying toon. whyy must put tagboard?
doesnt a comment box look neater?
helloo jx. =)

people amaze me. contridicting themselves.
developing what i call this. high and mighty attitude.
singaporeans especially.
one controversial report can lead to so many comments.
yet still. these people do not know how to put what they preach to use.
talk about shame. sheesh.

a US mom put her daughter to shame in public.
if you donot have the slightest idea of what i'm talking about go read the papers.
maybe if their kids were put to shame this way. there wouldnt be any rude
teenage fucks walking around now pissing everyone's asses off.

maybe it's just me. but i cant seem to click with many kids of my age.
save for my own friends.

and i refuse to speak too much mandarin 'cos i dont want my english standard
to drop any further.
not that my english standard is fantastic, i just dont want it to disintergrate anymore.
it. scares me.

2007-05-22T02:12:00.000+08:00

haven updated in a while.
been too busy with bleach.
haven mapled in a while.
been too busy with bleach.

BLEACH TAKES UP ALL MY FREE TIME!
and i love ICHIGO.
KON IS ADORABLE.

update again later.
bleach time!

♥ 爱，很简单

2007-05-18T00:03:00.000+08:00

singaporeans should be taught manners.
so do china man.
absolutely. a bane to my life. a thorn in my ass.
come to think of it. china people aint as bad as singaporeans.
not all singaporeans though. MOST of them.

hey. GEMS. my ass. you do not. i repeat DO NOT deserve any extra service or whatsoever.
yeah yeah. i dont give a damn. i wish you would all fall down the escalator and break a bone.
spoilt my day rotten.

i was reading the papers today, and i so happen to chance upon this article
that was talking about war.

why. must we create war?
for the superior feeling? or indifferences that cannot be settled?
this issue about war, has always touched this. little part of my heart.
not that i care much though.
it's just the senseless bloodshed and loss of lives that put a tear to my eye.
i swear. i was tearing when i read that report.

religion and all. every religion has their own sensitive issues.
but toleration. isn't that what we're taught?
if you were to throw me in Pakistan. i'd probably be stoned to death.
just like the girl who was stoned to death in Iraq.
care to watch the vid? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TwoiExMd7QY"> click here

MAN. this world. i hope it really ends. SOON.
real soon.

2007-05-17T01:20:00.000+08:00

heeellllooooooooooo kiat.
you popped by. =)

finally got down to doing a blog. the many pleasures in life after semi quitting maple.
my brain is killing me. either im using too many brain cells. or. my migraine is getting worse.

i was reading the papers the other day. tsktsk. nowadays. youngsters really do have alot of angst in them.
parents didnt bring these kids up properly. what a joke.
the bus uncle should just charge that boy. so what if he's from a top jc?
so what if the father knelt down at the bus interchange to beg for forgiveness?
it's downright humliation.
it's just the little things in life. that really kinda cheeses me off.

the world is coming to an end. dont ask me why.
i think you can see it yourself.
maybe 10 years, 20 years down the road. singapore will be gone. =X
nahs. perhaps not so soon, but eventually we will sink below sea level.
and be the missing city.

alright. im crapping. this aint no smart post.
the right side of my head is killing me. i need some sleep.

alicia's officially considered BRAIN DEAD.
used too much brain cells. ><"

2007-05-16T05:55:00.000+08:00

FINALLY DONE!

this page is now officially in use. =)
update again another time.
whole night of html is giving me a bad headache.